I became probably the most proud Christian for the following reason:
I think, most of us realized that we do something wrong: We lived accordingly the letter of the Gospel as a law, despite of Gospel itself taught not to live by the law and by the letter.
(1 Cor. 9) “23 And this I do for the gospel’s sake, that I might be partaker thereof with you. 24 Know you not that they which run in a race run all, but one receives the prize? So run, that you may obtain. 25 And every man that strives for the mastery is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a corruptible crown; but we an incorruptible.”
This means that only Jesus will receive the award (only one will receives the award). Our life is part of His life, our reward is part of His reward.
With all my deficiencies, it was I who arrived to the finish line first, that is, the first guessed what the main meaning of the Gospel was. All that happened before is a joke “a book about how to live not by a book, but by the spirit”.
So, I concluded that me (because I hit the finish line first) will be the only one man who receives the prize for following Gospel, and the rest will be just my imagination in the heaven (otherwise they would have a separate prize than me).
This looked plausible in practice. For example:
- I am a great mathematician. Everybody owes me money for my discovery. But I am poor. So God will punish you sinners for not sending me money. Because you are not going to pay, your debt will grow, and when God will require it from you, you won’t be able to pay, you will become my slaves and I will be your Baal.
- I am a great sufferer. For example, I ate grass and drank from a puddle because of lack of money (despite of having a share in a relatively expensive house, which I however was illegally sent out). Isn’t the first prize winner assumed to be a great sufferer by the Christian tradition?
- I am a great philosopher, etc.
So I thought: Humility in a large scale is probably the past for me. I cannot attain it anymore… or can?
Once I got a brilliant idea: Why not to share my prize in the heaven with somebody others?
Today I finally realized: Everybody who comes to the heaven will receive the entire prize and everybody who comes to the heaven will share it, because who don’t want to share won’t come to the heaven at all ((1Jn. 4) “7 Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loves is born of God, and knows God. 8 He that loves not knows not God; for God is love.”)
Really: (Jn. 17) “21 That they all may be one; as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22 And the glory which you gave me I have given them; that they may be one, even as we are one: 23 I in them, and you in me, that they may be made perfect in one; and that the world may know that you have sent me, and have loved them, as you have loved me.” The Son is a part of the Father and the Father is a part of the Son. In the same way, everybody of us will be a part of each other in the heaven. So everybody will receive the entire prize.
Now I can stop to be an especially proud Christian. I just admit that I am a great mathematician and Christian philosopher, who I really am.