(1 Cor. 9) “23 And this I do for the gospel’s sake, that I might be partaker thereof with you. 24 Know you not that they which run in a race run all, but one receives the prize? So run, that you may obtain. 25 And every man that strives for the mastery is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a corruptible crown; but we an incorruptible.”
This means that only Jesus will receive the award (only one will receives the award). Our life is part of His life, our reward is part of His reward.
With all my deficiencies, it was I who arrived to the finish line first, that is, the first guessed what the main meaning of the Gospel was. All that happened before is a joke “a book about how to live not by a book, but by the spirit”.
Now at a new level, when the old spiritual principles no longer work and I do not live “according to the law,” why now should I not boast? I do not guarantee 100% that the following is the truth about my reward from God, but in my opinion, this is so.
In the “life accordingly Gospel” nomination, only I will receive the award. That is, your reward will be part of mine.
(2 Cor. 11) “21 … However, when ever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also. 22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I. 23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labors more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft. 24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one. 25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep; 26 In journeys often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by my own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brothers; 27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.” I know only one person (not counting Jesus Christ himself) who suffered for faith compared to how much I suffered, apostle Paul. Maybe there were other martyrs of my rank, but I don’t know any such ones. Pavel was beaten by the head with stones, but I was beaten with a frying pan. I almost did not eat for months, sometimes drank from a puddle. Mother beated me to memory loss. And I could not travel, because I did not have money for bus tickets and I was sitting in my apartment as in a dungeon. Yes, I am a Jew, by the way. Watched disaster movies? Now imagine that something like this happens to a person every day for several years. I asked everyone to help me and almost none cared.
I am the author one of the greatest mathematical discoveries of the last dozens of years , which I made when I was a student (though not a student with only excellent grades), such discoveries cost a trillion dollars, the author of a new philosophical system, one of the best preachers in the world (however, I can only preach for about ten minutes and I can only read them on paper), the author is probably the most interesting blog in the world (which so far almost no one wants to read). I cognized the meaning of suffering . However, I do not think that I am the most brilliant of geniuses; probably, for example, the modern mathematician Terence Tao is smarter than me. But only me turned into a superman for a whole month .
(Gal. 1) “11 I declare unto you, brethren, that the gospel which I preached is not human, 12 for I also received it and learned not from man, but through the revelation of Jesus Christ.” (2Cor. 13:3) “You seek evidence of whether Christ says in me: He is not powerless for you, but strong in you.” (Gal. 2:20) “By the law I died for the law in order to live for God. I have been crucified with Christ, 20 and no longer I live, but Christ lives in me. And now that I live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and betrayed Himself for me.” (1Tim. 1:16) “But for this I have mercy, that Jesus Christ in me first should show all patience, as an example those who will believe in him to eternal life.”
In Paul, there was “the revelation of Jesus Christ,” that is, his character and life were somewhat similar to His life. And I also have the revelation of Jesus Christ, which means that by studying my life and my views, you can better understand Jesus and His sacrifice.
Once I said out loud: “I was crucified on the cross” (meaning that I experienced suffering and contradictions in my mind, pulling me in different directions, as the nails of the cross pull in different directions the hands of the hanging man). Then the angel lit a light bulb in the room I entered. Apparently, the angels decided that if Jesus himself appeared in me, then it is not necessary to bother the carrier of revelation by pressing the switch button, but it is better to help him.
I was offended (see also my life story). I think I was offended more than any other people in all the world. Who else was offended with a trillion dollars with blows by the frying pan over the head? (Ps. 103:6) “The Lord makes righteousness and judgment to all who are offended,” (Psalm 146:7) “makes the judgment to the offended, giving bread to the hungry. The Lord permits the prisoners.” For this you will not go to hell, but in heaven you will exist only in my fantasies (only I get your life in heaven, your life will be a part of mine). I say the earthly analogy: would you like to offend your hoster or moderator with action or inaction? It’s your problem that you spoiled my character with so many problems and especially with a frying pan. Jesus will make people’s heads smaller , make them monkeys for such an offense. You offended and killed geniuses, proud of your stupidity, get what you wanted.
It’s about a reward in heaven, but in this life I have the right to do everything that I want (for example, because at any moment I can say that I am insane if I need it, (Gal. 5:23) “on those there is no law”) and, perhaps, I will become a billionaire , I will bring half the world to repentance, I will receive more than one Nobel Prize, unite the Orthodox-Catholic and Protestant churches and so on. This is not so important, the bottom line is what will happen in heaven.
When I was starving to death, I wrote to the government, to the president, to all the billionaires I found at the UN, even to the American president. Nobody wanted to help me. In essence, the whole world is guilty. Guilty in the first place in stupidity: you almost lost my scientific discovery, which is worth a trillion dollars. I once prayed: God, give me 10 rubles and I was brought such a paper by the wind; and it was not once.
And how am I different from other people? Maybe I have a slightly higher than average IQ, but this is not the main thing. I just seriously decided to achieve a result. When I came to church, they demanded that I play with their young people. I could pretend that I was playing (for the purpose of career growth in the church), but they demanded from me that I like to play (of course, I could not meet this requirement) and it was not known to anyone that I was serious. I seriously wanted to understand the essence of the meaning of the Bible and achieve a result. For this, I, a beggar, searched for Hebrew and Greek books that I could not buy.
I had many opportunities to go off the distance: to kill myself, to refuse to fight, to decide to achieve everything through not quite honestly acquired money, to give up Christianity because of contradictions in my understanding of the Bible, to stop talking about the Gospel, to renounce faith in order to have the opportunity to preach it, but I am the first to complete the distance.
(Mat. 10) “40 He who receives you, receives Me, and he who receives Me, receives Him who sent Me; 41 whoever receives the prophet, in the name of the prophet, will receive the reward of the prophet; and whoever accepts the righteous, in the name of the righteous, will receive the reward of the righteous. 42 And whoever gives one of these little ones only a cup of cold water, in the name of a disciple, truly I tell you, he will not lose his reward.”
(Luk. 16:9) “And I say to you: make friends for yourself with riches of unrighteousness, so that when you are impoverished, they will take you to eternal abodes.” So, you should make friends with me, so I gave you more space in my imagination in the heaven. Conclusion: put likes on my blogs and send me money .